She cried until
she had nothing left
Until there was
only cyanide inside, somewhere once a sense of pride
Bought tickets to
a ride
But the devil’s in
the details, because when you buy the ticket
Someone else
controls the gates of the carnival.
Empty maybe
But there’s
something left inside
She’s made of
cyanide and broken pride
Drained dreams
busting at the fucking seams
She is me, now the
cyanide queen
No respite on her
knees, no more dreams of being free.
She is the cyanide
that binds to your enzymes
Destroying all of
your rhythm and rhyme
She is cyanide,
she is me, she is my “what I have grown to be”.
Tears of acid rain
Let them
fall—maybe they’ll sooth your pain
I’m the quiet one
at the table
All the lost and
quite a bit unstable
A lot silent, a
little bit violent
Cyanide boiling up
inside
Pick a moment, a
person, any volunteering victim
She’s quiet but
she’s a little bit violent in her silence.
Cyanide queen
falling apart at the seams
I’ll melt a hole
in your fucking soul
Until you think
you need me, say “You complete me”
Maybe the acid
rain will sooth your pain
White-tipped
eyelashes, taste the salt of broken things
Because the
devil’s in the details
And honey, you
chose to take a walk in those heels.
They all watched
me, the cyanide queen--Satan’s little angel
And my fall from
grace, no attempting to save face
Such was never my
place
But clearly I’ll
have descended straight to hell.
I am the dust of
all the stars I was once made of
I am your broken
dreams, the cyanide hiding inside
The darkness in
your silence, your secret violence
Your filthiest
fantasy
The acid rain
falling softly on your soul
And somehow still
I’ll make you think that you need me to make you whole.
They clipped my
wings and watched my fall from grace
Expecting me to
make some attempt to once again rise
But I’m sitting
here in hell
Got my own seat at
the devil’s table
You’re welcome to
come on down if you are willing and able.
Think I’ll sit
back and put on the matching heels
Settle in and
maybe make a deal
The devil’s in the
details
The cyanide queen
is sitting here on her knees
Dearest devil, do
you need another ruler in your kingdom?
A vicious little
bitch to brand?
Maybe another left
hand?
Or maybe I’ll just
take your fucking throne and rule alone.
There shall be no
phoenix rising from these ashes
The darkness has
become my storm
This is my fucking
reborn
I am the ashes, the
empty space between breaths
I am
That painful ache
in your chest.
Cyanide, she is
part of my norm
And when your
heart is battered and torn
I’ll be there with
my cyanide soul and my acid tears
To melt away your
fears
I come not bearing
comfort
For I am the
passion in the darkness you hide within
The skeleton in
your closet of all that you have ever lost
The one who holds
all of your secret sins
I am the joy found
in pain and the compounds of acid rain
Your pleasure
found in pain.
They all watched
my descent from grace, kept my wings and tried to save face
I got myself a
seat at the devils table now
I am the forbidden
fruit on the plate
Your secret hate
So I got myself a
seat at the devil’s table
With my cyanide heart,
I figure it’s a pretty good start
I’ll be every ride
in his fucking playground
When the last
angel has fallen
And all that you
love has gone on
Look for me and perhaps
that is where I’ll be found.