Random ranting

Normally when life turns upside down and inside out, my blog does too. This time I just haven't been able to post. And I miss it. Because all the introspective crap I spew? It helps me work through life and submission and my multiple occasional issues. It helps me get the excess thoughts out of my mind which makes a big difference in the quality of my submission--whenever I have to much going on in my mind it's harder for me to get out of my head and just let go.
After a while, my head sounds like a train station and all those multiple thoughts that may have originated as something constructive, become one big mess. And this post will probably reflect that lol.

Focusing on my submission makes me a better sub, it keeps me balanced, and makes the overwhelming mess of our daily life more manageable. And when that focus slips? I get all out of whack.
And Alpha is off kilter with life...and I feel a bit like my grasp on life is slipping. Of course, it's a luxury I don't have--because He's always the one with a sense of optimism and that unshakeable faith that everything is going to be okay. And I don't believe in dropping the ball when it gets thrown at me...Still, optimism doesn't suit me. I'm far more accustomed to sarcasm and cynicism--they fit me so much better lol.

Anyways, rumor has it that sil and child (who is very close to getting turned over my knee for what I believe to be completely unacceptable behavior that I would never tolerate from my own children. That shit's contagious too. I swear it's worse than the flue...) will be moving on to someone else's living room this weekend. That alone will make a huge difference. Our life just isn't compatible with having them here.

So my new focus? Focusfocusfuckingfocus! And get back to where I belong. Then the world will turn right side up again...or at least back to it's normal tilt lol.