Sunday, August 9, 2015

Alive

I love dreaming.
In my dreams, is where I find myself feeling truly alive.
I dreamed last night.
Awful and sad
beautiful and mysterious
angry and afraid.
Alive.

I dreamed that my home was gone
nowhere to run back to
no going home
it was terrible and sad
I slipped momentarily into this conciousness we call waking life
feeling tears sliding down my cheeks.
Lost.
Alive.

I dreamed about libraries and beautiful mysterious creatures
a world of wonderful and strange things
it was magic and imagination
stories of tales rising from the ages
and walking off the pages.
Alive.

I dreamed about someone else
he found someone else
blonde and beautiful,
she was who he chose because I was not there
it hurt
wanting him back
to be mine once again.
I was angry and alone.
Alive.

I dreamed last night.
Of feeling.
Of being.
Alive.





8 comments:

  1. Beautiful poem, as usual. It doesn't seem quite as sad as the last one, so I'm hoping life is a bit better for you.

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    1. Thank you, sunnygirl!
      I'm entirely too busy to feel a whole lot of anything besides the pain in my brain these days...

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  2. Wow Lil, beautiful as always, your poems are amazing. I too hope things are better for you.

    Hugs
    Roz

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    1. Thank you Roz! So busy I can't see straight, maybe it helps...

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  3. We're seeking an experience of being alive not the meaning of life... That is thought provoking...

    I'm really happy to see a post from you--it's just not the same around here without you.

    How about you do something for him that you haven't done in a long time--something he loves??? Make the time and do it, no matter how tired you are or how much you don't feel like it.

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    1. Misty,
      I miss it here! I haven't been stalking my normal blogs in ages...

      That's a really good idea...If I can pull my brains out of their puddle on the floor, I might be able to come up with something halfway decent!

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