Sunday, January 3, 2016

To Be Great...

I want to be great again.
With him. I want us to be great.

I no longer care about being great at what we do--after more than a month of 60 plus hour weeks with no end in sight, I'll settle for mere survival.

We're okay. But when you know what it is to be truly mind-blowingly great, "okay" is a poor substitute.

I am not who I was. If you asked our employees, all of them would say they think I sleep at work. Some might even claim that I never existed outside of that place--that I was created in those rooms, and am as much a part of the facility as the walls themselves.

Maybe I am, but I was not. And I want to be great again.

People are the pulse of any facility, and you can feel them as they go about their daily duties.
Survival.
I am part of the heartbeat which keeps the pulse going, part of the brain which coordinates all of the moving parts, molecules of blood in the veins through which the pulse is felt. Every day, the goal is survival.

Perhaps one day that crazy organism will be great. Perhaps it will not.

Yet still...

With him. I want us to be great. Him and I.


12 comments:

  1. ((Hugs)) Lil, hang in there, hoping it will happen for you in the new year. Wishing you, Alpha and family all the very best in 2016.

    Hugs
    Roz

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    1. Thank you, Roz.
      I hope that the year ahead brings lovely things your way.

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  2. Best Wishes for a less busy 2016.

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    1. Thanks, sunnygirl. I need it! I hope that you have a wonderful year.

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  3. Maybe wanting it is the first step to getting back to great??

    Honestly, I'm wondering how you even have the energy to want!

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    1. Misty,
      I worked nearly 80 hours this week. I don't. But I remember us being great, and everything else in life sucks so...It's just one of a million little aches at the moment.

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  4. I so hear you my friend. It was great - more so even - we were great. Now - now we survive. The thing is though - i don't think surviving would have been a given without the Us - without the greatness. This is where the greatness is going for now. I hope you can redirect some of your greatness in ways you would like - soon - cuz it's still there- it's just otherwise occupied. I hope 2016 is a really good year for you!

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    1. gg,
      thank you.
      I guess I just kinda feel like all that other greatness is being eaten too...

      I hope I can redirect it too!. I hope that your year to come is filled with blessings.

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  5. ^Yeah, *that* to everything you said.
    And... ^that^ to everything greengirl said.


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    1. Bleu,
      if you're saying yea to me, I'm sorry to hear that--it's really no fun at all.

      gg is good, isn't she?

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  6. Green girl summed up what I was struggling to say.
    wishing you a calmer 2016
    hugs DF

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    1. DelFonte,
      Thank you! I hope2 2016 is good to you.

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