Fuck You Up or Fuck Me Down

I have seen the bottom of many bottles, worked my way through a lot of piles, 

and walked so many damn miles.

I have cradled demons in my hands and danced with lightning in the dark,

contemplating that eternal spark.

I'll fuck you up until you fuck me down

down down down, all the way into the ground.

Take a moment to look around

can you hear the weight of sound?

What was once lost has been found.

Contemplate those stormy sees

spend some time in the pouring rain on your knees

come on now

breathe into me.

Hold that space lost one,

that empty place I kept for you

in a silent room on my knees

asking only to be allowed to please.

So diligently you stand in that doorway

no other shall pass, just as you have silently asked.

Yet still you refuse to step inside the storm.

There's an empty space inside of me

I can fuck you up or you can fuck me down,

and so we go round and round

unacknowledged electricity fills the space between us

smoldering so strongly that I can barely breathe.

Can you feel me?

I am no endless sea

simply a perfect storm on her knees

whatever will you do with me?

something, anything please

fuck me down before you fuck me up.

Can you feel me like I feel you?

Back and forth we dance in the darkness

coming only close enough to spark the flames, never close enough to touch

I am never enough and always too much.

I have waited, I have waited for you

on my knees with my offerings

I let you in, fed you my sins

always a full plate awaits when you wander through that door

and you know, you know that I am a whore

for you, for him, for the deadly beauty you hold within.

So baby, fuck me up or fuck me down

and we'll go round and round

'cuz I hear your voice in my head every time I lay down in my bed

Feel your arms in my dreams

and see their reflections in your eyes when I look upon the sky.

One day you smiled at me

and I swear my heart fell into my fucking knees

and all I could think was

oh shit...This is gonna hurt like a bitch.

So baby on we go, round and round

stranger than the weight of sound

'cuz you fuck me up and fuck me down

and we are without beginning or end.