Saturday, November 5, 2016

Best Not...


Best not to catch feelings
Best not listen to my whisper in your ear
Of those things everyone wants and is afraid to hear
Best not peek inside Pandora’s Box
There’s a reason I came with locks.

Go ahead
Take a little peek
He already picked the lock
Opened the box
Made a key
And set me free.

The scars on my body
Carvings on the box
Hiding within the sum of secrets and sin
I came with so many locks
Yet he did not knock.

I am the contents of Pandora’s Box
My scars simply carvings on the lid
I’ll spill my secrets, invite you to get your kicks
Maybe I’ll fuck or fuck up your mind
Chances are that it will be both with time
Whether or not you are or ever will be mine

Come on, just one little kiss…
One little slip into me
And then you’ll see
The taste of sound as it spins around
Like my blood on your lips
The soft trail of fingertips.

He’ll open me up and set me in front of you
I’ll sink to my knees, offering to drown in your seas
If you take just one little peek
I’ll find you in the darkness
Offering the acceptance you seek
Freeing dangers hidden and unseen.

I am Pandora’s Box, I’ll free the demons in your soul
Will it complete you, or will it swallow you whole?
I am pain and aching desire for the untouchable fire
Best not to look inside
I have no more pride
I’m simply lost on the ride.

I’ll be your coke whore
Your open door.
I’ll be your midnight phone call
The pause before your fall
And the aching sorrow in your chest
I’ll be the one you kept, the one that got away, and the one that shall always stay
I am the remains of your pain
And the shreds of all that has kept you sane
I’ll be your hope and everything in you that has been broken
You’ll see. When the box is open.

Best not to catch feelings
I’m in here dreaming
Of things both meant and never meant to be
He opened me up and set me free
Maybe you’ll take a peek
And find me on my knees.

Best not look darlin
I’ll reach to comfort your soul
Desperately desiring to offer you hope
And perhaps my demons will consume you whole
Perhaps after me you’ll be broken
Pieces of everything left unspoken, hope left as a dangerous token.

Maybe I just want to be seen
To be loved for my broken being
To use my soul and gently stitch up your seams
Perhaps instead, I’ll haunt your dreams
And torment your being
For I am Pandora’s Box, and he’ll set me in front of you
Open and unlocked.

I’ll be your fucking drug,
Your forbidden love
I’ll be your playground
My moans the sweetest torture of sound.

I’ll be the one who loved you,
The one you could never have
The one who never got away, but could not stay.
On my knees I’ll pray
So for that moment you can be god
And I’ll be the remnants of all that you have sought
A gift that can never be bought.

Best not to peek inside
Too late now
There’s not much left to hide
I have no need for my own broken pride
My skin is Pandora’s Box,
My being all the evils and hope within
The sum of your sorrows and sin.

I am that line where sky meets earth
Unintentionally, I’ll drag your heart through the dirt
I am the pause between breaths
That moment in which you contemplate death
Best to love me not
For my body is Pandora’s Box
And my soul its contents
I have been unlocked
Spilling the contents within
I am the story of your pain, thirst, hope, and sin
I am the sum of everything you have ever drowned in.

I’ll come to chase away those monsters under your bed
For I am made up of the ones inside of your head
I’ll be there by your side when you’re bleeding in the dirt
Swallow all of your sorrows and hurt
I’ll witness your blood sweat and tears, gently cradle your fears
I’ll break your heart and leave my mark
Whisper how much I love you into the dark.

I am the eye of the storm, and it is all contained within this small box, now left unlocked
I’ll hold up the mirror to the skeletons in your closet
Free your demons and let them run screaming
To crash into me
I’ll drown in your fucking sea.

Just one little peek
One little touch
Nothing is ever enough
Best not to look, best not to love
For I am not heaven sent from above
I am Pandora’s Box
And it is best for you

To love me not.

6 comments:

  1. Wow Lil, your writing truly is amazing. Sending huge ((Hugs)) your way.

    Hugs
    Roz

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  2. I read this last night and had to come back again this morning..you are an amazing poet. The emotion that shines through all of this....and the emotion that I feel each time reading it....worthy of being published.
    Thank you for sharing your works of art with us.
    hugs abby

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    1. Thank you, abby. I appreciate your kind remarks and encouragement!

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  3. ONG lil, that was amazing. Your words make me feel your pain and look into your soul.

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    1. Thank you, sunnygirl! They have accomplished the purpose of poetry then :))

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