Wow. So I'm sitting in my living room in the afternoon (omg, it's still light out!) for the first time in a month, and it's...Awesome, but kinda crappy and a bit odd. Alpha's still away for his interview, and it's just me and the little guy (had to leave the big one with grandma.
I'm not really home, but it's good. Soo ridiculously good. Even if he's not here. And that is kinda crappy...
It's good to be writing here. It was good to see your comments and just...Be here. This place is so much a part of my expression of slavery, that it reminds me...Aw fuck, I'm a slave! Lol. The things I have accomplished this month have required me to be quite...Otherwise.
My big accomplishment was getting her medicaid within two days. Seriously, if you have ever applied for that shit, you know how bad it can be. My hope is to be able to be able to throw that first $85,000 dollars worth of bills away. Yea...That's for two days. I'm sure they're still doing the addition for the rest of the two weeks.
So yea...I haven't been lazy, for real. And I maybe could have gotten her a few hours of in home care every week, but I've had that job for eight dollars an hour, and I'll be damned if someone else is going to come do it for my mother. The help would be negligible anyway.
But where was I? Oh yea, I'm a slave. Almost forgot. Except I couldn't...It's in my damn bones, the way my mind work, the things I think as I drift off to sleep, the little butterflies when I hear his voice, the feeling that settles over me when I settle in front of this blog...
It is good to be home. He's not here, and I'll be gone again in the morning, but damn it's good for now.
And...Thank you. It was awesome to have to spend more than half an hour replying to comments. Totally awesome.