Specifically, what it is to live as a slave, what it means to be a slave, what slavery is to me. Or not. I haven't been. I would say that really sucks, but I do recall mentioning something about skipping the angst this time...
What slavery is to me was established some time ago--it is whatever he says it is. Yet...There is a finesse and depth to it which is overlooked by such statements.
He says he wants it all, and he means it. There will be no half measures or kinda all in here. He wants to have me as completely as one person can possess another.
It's funny, you know, reaching towards an elusive goal, only to one day realize that you've been living it for some time. You're just so far in that the view is normal...
The view has been very different for me lately, after nearly two months away from home.
I'm home. And I have been informed, that the view had better change back to the way it was pretty damn quickly.
Sigh.
Did I mention that I'm home? I feel like that announcement should be accompanied by streamers and whistles. Ah well, dirty dishes and piles of laundry shall have to suffice.
Welcome home! The confetti is out here, along with bunting and balloons. I'll make a cake too. (honestly, we do have bunting lying around here - my kids have been making them for some reason, something to do with the World Cup, I think)
ReplyDeleteSorry, can't help with the dirty dishes.
DelFonte,
DeleteThanks for the welcoming! I'll take two pieces of cake, please.
No worries about the dishes--I decided to save the big kid half of them. Though I'm happy to say, the rest of the place is beginning to look remarkably better...
Yay! Home! Confetti!
ReplyDeleteksst,
Deleteyou totally made me grin. Thank you.
Welcome home..and i so agree with that sentiment. I also love the...You are so far in the view is normal....a great way to think about it.
ReplyDeletehugs abby
abby,
Deletethank you! It will be good to get back to our normal.
welcome home.
ReplyDeleteall is much better with my world now...
:-D
Thank you, Jz. The world feels like a much better place today, I must say!
DeleteYeah, that why you call him Alpha.
ReplyDeleteWelcome home. When does he leave for his new job, or should I not ask.
sunnygirl,
Deletelol! Very true, very true.
He's flying back and forth a lot while trying to do a fairly large job for his regular work. We don't have a set date for the move yet--we're trying not to get too carried away until a contract is signed.
Hooray for being home! So far in the view is normal ... love that and it's so true. Sometimes we just can't see it.
ReplyDeleteHugs
Roz
Roz,
Deleteit's hard to see from inside sometimes. Maybe that step back isn't always a bad thing...
Welcome back! There's always that sense of comfort when returning home after being away. And then there are all the little chores that pile up while you're gone.
ReplyDeleteI really enjoyed what you had to say about reaching for some elusive goal to one day realize you're living it. I hope to be there one day!
Thank you, Lea! Oh yea--the pile-up was pretty big. Lol.
DeleteIt's interesting, I spend far too much time focusing on the future, then I have those days where I realize that now IS the future...I'm trying to spend more time in the present, but it is proving to be a somewhat elusive goal...