Sunday, June 29, 2014

Random (Not So) Internal Debates

I henna'd my hair again last night, and I would just like to say that the prospect of a day of laziness on the couch because my head is covered in goop, now sounds much better than "sleeping" with it on, lol.

I have to go to work today.
I realize that I'm going to have to pay more attention to what I post here. We have always been very private people, but he will be moving into the public eye more, and I'm going to have to adapt to that on many different levels.
I seriously wonder why my house looks like a bomb went off in it after only two days of not cleaning it. And really, what's with the instantaneous lack of towels, clean or otherwise?
I have a doctor's appointment in a week or so, and I'm really hoping that he's not as keen on removing everything as the last doctor was.
I have a big decision to make. It's one of those stupid life-changing ones that I have to make on my own, which could affect his job and it's eating all of my brain power that might otherwise be applied elsewhere.

Speaking of decisions that he won't help me with, this whole slave thing is friggin complicated! I don't want to make the stupid decision myself. Then there are some decisions that I'd like to make, but nope...Where is that magical unicorn and rainbow laden world where I get to live mindlessly chained to the bed? Humph.

Wanders off to think excessively...


14 comments:

  1. Not getting any help from this quarter, I overthink everything, then think again. Good luck with making the decisions that must be made.

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    1. Thank you, sunnygirl. Overthinking, it's like an epidemic!

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  2. Maybe you could write your options down on pieces of paper, put them in a hat, and pick one? :)

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    1. Misty,
      There's really only two...One would think that should make it simpler!!

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  3. I don't get the help either. It frustrates me. Help me figure it out? Nope, it's not who He is.

    Good luck with the doctor appointment.

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    1. His slut,
      He is very...Particular about what he wants me to decide for myself. If it's a life direction thing he'll offer his thoughts and then expect me to come to a decision on my own.

      Thank you! I'll need all the luck I can get.

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  4. oh man, what IS it with that?! the decisions I want to make - nope. The ones I don't want to touch with a barge pole - yup, they're mine! no fair!

    (((hugs))) good luck, and with the drs too

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    1. mc kitten,
      Iknowright?! That's how it often goes around here too, lol.

      Thank you.

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  5. What does henna do for the hair? Or is it for coloring?

    The fear of being 'outed' can be really intense. I have a public career right now and I don't know what would happen if things became known!

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    1. Lea,
      it colors and conditions.
      http://www.hennaforhair.com/

      We have lived such private lives up to this point, that it is a bit of an adjustment to make!

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  6. Good luck with both the doctor and the decisions that have to be made. Yep, I'm with you too ... no help on decisions you don't want to make, but those you do want to make ...

    (((Hugs)))
    Roz

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    1. Thank you, Roz!
      What's with that whole decision thing anyways...

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  7. I call this meeting of Overthinkers Anonymous to order!

    As frustrating to you as it seems to want him to make that decision, I think your Alpha is a smart man, sweety. You're a lucky girl.

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    1. lm,
      You sure that you don't want to take on another chapter?

      I am lucky, and he is smart. It's still pain in my ass though!

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