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I had enough time to think about other things today...
And I realized that I am having some serious cravings of my own. I think about his Domination like PMS attracts me to chocolate.
Though it's there, under the surface, impacting all major decisions, a right here, left there, words spoken and unspoken; it's the expression, the feeling in my stomach, the loss of control, the surrender, the rush and sense of deep satisfaction that accompanies acts of D/s that I find myself deeply in need of.
I have comments to respond to...I'll get there when my brain finishes rewiring it's fried circuits.
Glad you made it through!
ReplyDeleteConina, omgoodness me too!
DeleteGlad that part is over. Better days ahead
ReplyDeletesunnygirl, I have been anticipating them like a kid drooling over ice cream.
DeleteSending thoughts of stregnth, temperance and courage as you face what lies ahead. Just remember to breathe lil and be gentle to yourself.
ReplyDeleteBig hugs,
mouse
mouse, thank you.
Delete"I think about his Domination like PMS attracts me to chocolate."
ReplyDeletePerfectly know that feeling 0.o
Ivyvines, There was a time I might have said nothing was better than chocolate...But I have changed my mind lol.
DeleteLots of hugs and warm thoughts
ReplyDeletetori xx
tori, thank you. You have no idea how much I appreciate it.
DeleteYay, you survived! And, you let her live too. That is something to be very proud of :) I wish her tons of luck in getting clean and sober, it's a long hard road, but worth the effort.
ReplyDeleteI love the pms and chocolate line, nice analogy for the need for dominance.
faerie, I thought that letting her live was an exceptional achievement lol. I wish her luck too--because if it doesn't work this time, we aren't doing it a tenth.
DeleteLol, by last night I was thinking that my analogy to chocolate was a severe understatement.
Glad you've got this far. I love how you've likened the pull of his dominance to the pull to chocolate :) Add coffee and a cigarette and that's how I'd feel maybe. Lol
ReplyDeleteDee x
Dee, yea, as I said above, maybe chocolate just wasn't enough of a comparison. Throw in cigarettes and coffee though and things change (after all, coffee counts as water too).
DeleteI am glad you got through it lil. Wishing your family the best.
ReplyDeleteI too enjoyed the pms/chocolate comparison. Yesterday was an interesting day for us, I pleaded with him to stop doing something and I was crying because it hurt but on he went. I was not turned on at all at the time but the rest of the day...........
Now I want to be right back in that very situation.
dancingbarez,
Deletethank you.
It always surprises me how something unpleasant that I want to end can leave me wanting simply because he did it even though I didn't want him to and didn't like it. Not sure that makes sense...
Hope you have a good weekend
ReplyDeletetiffany,
DeleteSo far so good! Pretty easy to top last weekend lol.