Thursday, March 12, 2015

A Question of Giving Up Something Meaningful

On to ancilla_ksst, and her tricky question: "If you had to choose to give up one thing which is meaningful to you, what would it be? It has to be a good thing, no fair choosing to give up hangnails and the like."

Dammit! Here I was all ready to give up migraines and under-eye bags. Sheesh--so unreasonable. What if I said that those things are very meaningful to me and we ignore the fact that said meaning revolves around hatred? No go huh...

When I think about this question, I get stuck on all of the things I gave up to move here--the mountain, the community, the feeling of belonging, our funky little house, and all of those glorious stars in the night sky.
I guess that maybe there's not really anything else meaningful to me that I'm willing to give up because all I have left is Alpha and our boys.

I suppose that what I'm trying to say, is that I feel like I have recently given up everything which is meaningful to me that I am willing to give up, and I don't feel like I have a whole lot left to throw into the pot...

So, what's left? Music, books, and my collar (I will probably think of some way better choices as soon as I hit the publish button). Since I would probably seriously consider throwing myself into a fire to rescue books, (good ones anyways), and I have already pretty much been forced to give up the collar since the headaches have gotten so bad, I have to choose music. That sucks, because music is awesome food for the soul!

*Surreptitiously cranks up the volume*


  1. Sorry, that was kind of a mean one, wasn't it? I appreciate all the things you wrote, though.

    1. ksst,
      it wasn't mean! I was just feeling exceptionally sorry for myself when I wrote it. Lol

  2. So sorry, lil. You may feel a little better if your stop focusing on the things you no longer have available at hand and delve into your memories of all those beautiful things you were able to experience for so long. Sorry, didn't mean to admonish.

    1. sunnygirl,
      valid point!
      Lol--I was clearly feeling quite sorry for myself when I wrote it.

  3. So sorry too Lil, giving up the things you love is do hard, but if you can turn it around as Sunny said ... also thinking of the benefits or bright spots of your new situation.


    1. Roz,
      good point! And there are many benefits our new situation. They're just not the instantaneous kind...They say patience is a virtue...I'm still waiting for it to kick it. Anytime now, dammit! Lol.


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