On to ancilla_ksst, and her tricky question: "If you had to choose to give up one thing which is meaningful to you, what would it be? It has to be a good thing, no fair choosing to give up hangnails and the like."
Dammit! Here I was all ready to give up migraines and under-eye bags. Sheesh--so unreasonable. What if I said that those things are very meaningful to me and we ignore the fact that said meaning revolves around hatred? No go huh...
When I think about this question, I get stuck on all of the things I gave up to move here--the mountain, the community, the feeling of belonging, our funky little house, and all of those glorious stars in the night sky.
I guess that maybe there's not really anything else meaningful to me that I'm willing to give up because all I have left is Alpha and our boys.
I suppose that what I'm trying to say, is that I feel like I have recently given up everything which is meaningful to me that I am willing to give up, and I don't feel like I have a whole lot left to throw into the pot...
So, what's left? Music, books, and my collar (I will probably think of some way better choices as soon as I hit the publish button). Since I would probably seriously consider throwing myself into a fire to rescue books, (good ones anyways), and I have already pretty much been forced to give up the collar since the headaches have gotten so bad, I have to choose music. That sucks, because music is awesome food for the soul!
*Surreptitiously cranks up the volume*