Saturday, September 28, 2013

Sometimes I wonder...

Sometimes I wonder if there was one specific moment in life when you realized that I would do anything you told me to.
I think that to often, we get caught up in the semantics of "Anything". That's how you get sucked into those conversations about limb amputation...
Really though, it's simple--to say that I would do anything he told me to, is a reasonable statement because there are many things that he would never demand.

Sometimes I wonder, and I think that maybe there are times when it's a little bit scary, a little bit glorious, a little bit intoxicating
having a woman on her knees
a woman begging to please
a canvas to explore and paint as you please.

Sometimes I wonder what you are thinking when I crawl to you
knowing that the next moment is all about your command
knowing that I am yours
knowing that you can and will do as you wish.

Sometimes I wonder how you choose the path
how you decide if we go further or rest where we are
how you choose which strings to pull, and which ones to cut.

Sometimes I wonder what the view is like from the top
always knowing that my view from the bottom
is the perspective that I was always meant to have.

20 comments:

  1. this makes me think and I'll come back to read it again!

    Love it btw,

    -sin

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    1. Thank you, sin! Glad you enjoyed it.

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  2. very articulate...I wonder too ...

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    1. His slut,
      thank you. It's hard not to wonder...

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  3. I did have a moment like that. I don't remember the exact day or month, but it was about two years ago. I went to my Master and told him I just realized that I would do anything he told me to do. It was a very strong feeling, and though because I'm not a perfect being, not a perfect slave, I have fucked up in the moment a couple of times since then, and not obeyed, if I get the chance I do straighten out and fall in line as soon as I can.

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    1. ksst,
      I think that feeling is where it's at--none of us are perfect. But I think that feeling keeps us (mostly) where we're supposed to be.

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  4. As usual, beautiful words and thoughts.

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  5. I wish my Master would write some of his thoughts down sometimes. He has said occasionally he does feel a little drunk on the power and thinks of telling me to do horrible things. We were walking down the road and he said "I could tell you to roll naked in that patch of poison ivy, and you would do it". I stared at him with horror, before admitting that yes I would. Then he said "But I'd never do that to you".

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    1. ksst,
      I think that's where the whole trust thing comes in...He knows he could, but he gives a shit, so he won't, and you know that too.
      Did I even make sense there...?

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  6. Beautiful lil!
    Just lovely!
    Hugs,
    mouse

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  7. I love this Lil, just beautiful. I wonder too.

    Hugs,
    Roz

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    1. Roz,
      thank you. Wondering isn't a bad thing...I think...

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  8. This was so well written And beautiful, I had to read it more than once. Wow!!!

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    1. Sarah,
      Thank you!
      It's always better to be read twice than half of once, lol.

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  9. This is beautiful lil... i've wondered too, what it's like to have a woman who will do anything you say, even if she balks for a minute... if you patiently command, she'll come around and comply. I would think it would be a heady thing. I know how heady it is for me to dream of having a man who will actually command, who will step up to the challenge of having 'that woman' in his life.

    Bekah

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    1. Thank you Bekah.
      It really is heady, isn't it?

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