His consistently insistent approach to our recent interactions is helping me cope with recent life occurrences, and assisting my attempts at developing a somewhat new relationship with pain.
I feel in a bit of an odd place lately. We have reached the point where I am well and truly willing to go as far as he wants, dive as deep as he wishes, or float near the surface--if he wishes.
Though I think that I always prefer pushing it just a teensy bit further...After all, retreat is no longer an option, and hasn't been for quite some time.
I'm rambling...But what else is this place for, if not to dump my random thought processes?
I am feeling comfortable in my submission, and I have become accepting of my slavery.
In this moment, there is no angst, no doubt, no overabundance of thought; just a constant awareness of being owned.
I know that I don't have it all figured out, and probably never will, but today I don't mind.
I think that we take something simple, something so simple as to exist at the core of our interactions, and make it confusingly complex.
Yes, M/s, D/s, relationships, they are complex because that is human nature. But really, underneath it all, that complexity is beautifully simplistic.
We are limited only by our perceptions and the scope of our beliefs.
Well, just think how good at it you'll be when you have to do it at the doctor's now. I always had trouble with those little cups and aiming.
ReplyDeleteksst,
DeleteLOL! True, true.
I just spit out my wine with laughing. Talk about pointing out the bright side to all of this. LOL
Deletebeautiful post, lil.
ReplyDelete"I am feeling comfortable in my submission, and I have become accepting of my slavery. In this moment, there is no angst, no doubt, no overabundance of thought; just a constant awareness of being owned.
ReplyDeleteI know that I don't have it all figured out, and probably never will, but today I don't mind."
I love this. LOVE it. Just being. Just accepting, not fighting the tide but moving with it. If we could all be this way.
Mickey,
DeleteThank you.
I wish I could be that way all the time...
Awww!
ReplyDeleteHappy to read about the peace, lil ;o)
Bleuame,
Deletethank you! Now if only it lasts...
As long as you are happy, all is right with your world.
ReplyDeletesunnygirl,
Deletevery true.
The hard part is trying remember the simplistic beauty when I've gone off and made everything so complicated, lol.
ReplyDeleteBy the way, I LOVE your last sentence.
Misty,
DeleteI know what you mean. I do that all the time lol.
Thank you.
Great post Lil, I love this ... this simplistic beauty. I too love your last sentence. So true.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad to hear you are comfortable in your submission and accepting of your slavery that Alpha is giving you what you need.
Hugs,
Roz
Roz,
Deletethank you.
I'm not always comfortable with it, but it isa lovely feeling when I am.
I am extremely good at making simple things complex. It's as if I don't know how to do simple, ;)
ReplyDeleteSarah,
Deletemaking simple things as complex as rocket science is a very special skill! Some of us even have degrees in it...Pull up a chair--we can have the annual alumni meeting early.
Complex Simplicity - an oxymoron when you really analyze it.
ReplyDeletei am always making everything more complex than need be. It drives all those around me batty. i will be honest, it is one reason i thrive in the D/s relationship. i don't have to think and make it complex, i just do and then discuss how i feel. It makes it so much simpler.
His slut,
Deleteit really can be soo difficult not to make things more complex though!
Its a good feeling when it all comes together isnt it, not necessarily easier but there more a kind of acceptance of why fight it all.
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tori,
Deleteexactly! Now if I could have just said that in the first place...
The little things like peeing in a cup seem odd but really it reminds us who we are and its easier to stay focused on them
ReplyDeleteDaisy,
Deleteit is all about the reminder.