He has been pulling tighter on the reins lately...I must say, it is exactly what I need. Even if I'm not thrilled to be peeing in a cup every morning.
His consistently insistent approach to our recent interactions is helping me cope with recent life occurrences, and assisting my attempts at developing a somewhat new relationship with pain.
I feel in a bit of an odd place lately. We have reached the point where I am well and truly willing to go as far as he wants, dive as deep as he wishes, or float near the surface--if he wishes.
Though I think that I always prefer pushing it just a teensy bit further...After all, retreat is no longer an option, and hasn't been for quite some time.
I'm rambling...But what else is this place for, if not to dump my random thought processes?
I am feeling comfortable in my submission, and I have become accepting of my slavery.
In this moment, there is no angst, no doubt, no overabundance of thought; just a constant awareness of being owned.
I know that I don't have it all figured out, and probably never will, but today I don't mind.
I think that we take something simple, something so simple as to exist at the core of our interactions, and make it confusingly complex.
Yes, M/s, D/s, relationships, they are complex because that is human nature. But really, underneath it all, that complexity is beautifully simplistic.
We are limited only by our perceptions and the scope of our beliefs.