Tuesday, August 12, 2014

I Remember There Was A Time...

I remember
there was a time
when I used to sit with you
we used to talk about all of those things
that people said kids were to young to understand
you would take me by the hand
and together we would roam across the land.

I remember
there was a time
when I used to play with you
you would laugh at me, and I at you
win or lose, 
those times were almost too good to be true.

I remember
when there was a time
 I used to tell you my dreams every morning
bouncing around you while you laughed at me and drank your coffee.

I remember when there was a time
full of reason and rhyme
life made sense 
and there was no such thing as not enough time.

I remember there was a time 
when you told me that maybe someday
mom would lose her mind in the recesses of time
you said that we'd take care of her
but you left me with my promises
like a near miss in the dark
with the cracks of a quiet heart.

I remember there was a time
and I promised mine
for her.
For you.
That I would always hold true to the invisible realities no one ever wants to see.
That I would always believe in the dreams we can't quite touch
moving silently through the dusk.

I remember
there was a time
when you were mine.

Bodies they fade to dust
memories they slowly rust
and those of us who remain go on only because we must
using pain like a crutch.
And sometimes I use memories of you
like alcohol on a wound
because if only for a moment
I can drown myself in the pain
and in that instant
you become more than just the memories which remain.

And I know, I know that you are fine.
But I remember 
there was a time
when you were mine.
These bodies, they turn to dust
and memories, over time they begin to rust
as I reach for one last touch.

16 comments:

  1. And sometimes I use memories of you like alcohol on a wound
    because if only for a moment I can drown myself in the pain
    and in that instant you become more than just the memories which remain.

    How sad, but at the same time how beautiful.

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    1. Han,
      Thank you.
      sometimes that which holds the most sadness also holds beauty.

      Now that I see this excerpt, I'm thinking I missed a good spot for a comma in there...

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  2. sad and beautiful.

    hope everything is ok xx

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    1. Thank you mc kitten. Yes, everything is okay.

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  3. Wow Lil, what an exquisite piece of writing! Sad yet very beautiful.

    I too hope everything is ok.

    ((Hugs))
    Roz

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    1. roz,
      thank you for your sweet compliments. Everything is okay.

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  4. Hugs.

    Beautiful yet so poignant.

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    1. Raine,
      it's one of those things that comes and goes of its own will.
      Thank you!

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  6. Incredible!

    I'm sorry I missed this date. I remembered last week and then I spaced it. So I'm truly sorry. But I love the way to pay tribute, the way you honor. So beautiful - like you, inside and out!! Quick hug and a pat on the back.

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    1. Sarah,
      aw, you really are too good to me. Thank you!!!

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