Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Not Very Good at This

I know that I still have comments to get to, but for now, I'm going to let the tired eat me and start clearing out the drafts folder, so... I haven't forgotten you though! 

I'm not particularly fond of things that I'm no good at.

Turns out, I'm not particularly good at this slave thing. Do you know how terrible it can be to have an overwhelming compulsion and be particularly bad at it?

Seriously. It's like no matter how much I don't want it, or how badly I decide I hate it in the moment, or how often I realize I'm terribly bad at it, I still cannot escape the need to be owned.

He likes to point out that without an owner I am like a ship with no harbor, and it's true. It is still odd to me though, to have this inner compulsion, this overwhelming need, this unavoidable craving...Yet...Continue to so often struggle with the basic realities. And really, we are not new to this anymore...So wtf?

I love this quote...


14 comments:

  1. O, wow, what a wonderful quote!! Thanks.

    And i think that having an urge to do something doesn't guarantee that we'll be good at it. But i bet youi're a much better slave than you think you are. Just saying.

    sofia

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    1. sofia,
      it is an awesome quote, isn't it?

      I hope I am, I hope I am. Thank you!

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  2. Love the quote! I agree, I think you are a much better slave then you think. We are our own worst critics.

    ((Hugs))
    Roz

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    1. Roz,
      we do seem to be that, don't we?
      T

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  3. Love the quote too. I agree with Roz. I think we are always harder on ourselves than others. Striving for perfection is a goal we all want but never achieve.

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    1. sunnygirl,
      somedays I think it's good to be that way. Other days...Maybe not so much!

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  4. I wander if its not so much not being good at being a slave, its what you are, but rather its just that sometimes its more of an effort at times, which in turn makes one feel that they are not good at it.

    ummm make sense?

    x

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    1. tori,
      Hmmm, that does make a lot of sense. I'm going to have to go muse on that one!

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  5. "Do you know how terrible it can be to have an overwhelming compulsion and be particularly bad at it?" Ummm, yes!

    I think part of it is because I know how it should work -I know how I should act- yet when the time comes to use that knowledge...it all just disappears. lol. Seriously, where does it go?!

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    1. Misty,
      sometimes I think "Knowing" is overrated! I does seem to spend a lot of time running out the door when I need to use it...

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  6. 'Do you know how terrible it can be to have an overwhelming compulsion and be particularly bad at it?'

    uh huh *nods vigorously*

    'It's like no matter how much I don't want it, or how badly I decide I hate it in the moment, or how often I realize I'm terribly bad at it, I still cannot escape the need to be owned.'

    oh god, me too. What IS all that about?!

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    1. mc kitten,
      let me know when you get it all figured out for us! Hope that I'll grasp it in the near future is fading fast...

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  7. If you weren't such a damn perfectionist, this wouldn't be a problem!

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    1. Sarah,
      lol! What can I say, I've been told that I might have a teensy problem...

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