I'm not particularly fond of things that I'm no good at.
Turns out, I'm not particularly good at this slave thing. Do you know how terrible it can be to have an overwhelming compulsion and be particularly bad at it?
Seriously. It's like no matter how much I don't want it, or how badly I decide I hate it in the moment, or how often I realize I'm terribly bad at it, I still cannot escape the need to be owned.
He likes to point out that without an owner I am like a ship with no harbor, and it's true. It is still odd to me though, to have this inner compulsion, this overwhelming need, this unavoidable craving...Yet...Continue to so often struggle with the basic realities. And really, we are not new to this anymore...So wtf?
|I love this quote...|