It surprises me that most of my Google hits come from the search term "submissive." Shouldn't really be a newsflash right? I mean it is in the title and all...
Maybe it surprises me because I remember being the person doing the searching, not the writing. Or maybe it's because I don't really feel like a shining example of a submissive.
Yes, that's definitely it.
So that got me to thinking, what then would a shining example look like? And why do I feel like I'm not one of them?
The truth is, I probably don't read many of the ones who look like constantly shining examples of perfect submission.
I like the stories of those who try, fall, and get up to try again. I like the stories written by submissives who are searching and questioning and always trying to discover something just a little bit deeper. And the ones with a sense of humor about it all just make me laugh. And I like that.
I like following those stories because I can identify with them. Because they expand the way I think and make me smile. Because they are real.
And ultimately, I believe that perfection is an illusion--that the closest any of us will ever get is being perfect for someone.
So why do I feel like an unreliable source of information for that particular search term? I think it's because I feel like I spend a lot of time falling flat. I don't see myself as a shining example of submission. Though for the most part, Alpha seems to think I'm alright so that's what really matters right.
Maybe I could write the "How Not to Do It Manual for Submissives" lol.
While I'm on the subject of keywords, I almost hate to say it because it might happen again, but it's too ridiculous not to share--I'll do it really quietly.
I got a hit off the search "French toast mindfuck."
It's one of those deeply disturbing things...That made me laugh.