Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Delicious Torment, Part II

Maybe it's been an hour, maybe it's been a minute, maybe time doesn't matter...

I suddenly need it so bad, and I don't know why I need it--the sensation of his cock sliding down my throat.
I'm consumed, yet I can't open my eyes, and I can't seem to speak, and I wouldn't presume to move on my own, or I'm not sure that I can...

I can hear the smile in his voice, because he knows I want it, I'm begging with my mouth, a whimper escapes me, pleasing him is the sole focus of my being in that moment. I need it more than I need air.
And there's a touch of playful menace in the slight chuckle which escapes his throat. Because we both know that I am, and will do, whatever he desires.
With the slightest of touches, he lets me descend to my knees, where he feeds my needs. Overeager, I choke myself on him.
I don't care about the water in my nose, on my face, running into my mouth... All I care about is the feeling of his rock hard cock filling my mouth, the sensation of him forcing open my throat, the taste of him as he empties himself and I greedily consume every last drop.
In that moment, I know without a shadow of a doubt, that this is what it is all about--though force has its place, a Master does not spend an eternity making his slave to do things. He makes her need to please him so strong that it overwhelms all else.
In that moment, I truly know what it is to get pleasure from pleasing.

I vaguely remember the walk to the bedroom. It is, as such moments often are, a rather hazy recollection.

I remember being blindfolded and spread out on the bed...It is an interesting phenomenon, the feeling of a Master's eyes, as they slide over one's body.
The inspection always makes me nervous, but not so much this time--he bathed me himself, and I seem to have temporarily lost the ability to feel any semblance of shame...

I feel feathers and pain
his breath on my skin, his eyes wandering over me
as I bite my lip in anticipation of the first thrust
that moment when he slides all the way in
and every inch of my skin burns for him.

And I know that this man is my fantasy,
he is all that I ever needed
and everything that I could possibly ever be belongs to him.
It's the tender cruelty
the way his eyes strip me when I'm already naked
the tone of his voice when he says, "Mine"
it is the way he takes what he wants and gives me what I need
the calculating look on his face
the way he shrugs off my wants as immaterial in the face of his desires.
It's how he touches me with that gruff familiarity, no question in his mind that every part of me is owned by him
the fact that he is both protector and tormentor
drowning me in the delicious agony of my own surrender.

Maybe we live for a moment, maybe it's an eternity, maybe time doesn't matter.
As long as I know that I have pleased, there is nothing more that I need to be.


  1. I love your writing - you are wasting your time doing any other thing. The reader is right there with you - you know how rare that is.

    Love the new background - I used it once too. Can tell you're feeling a little better, your backgrounds always seem to match your physical and emotional being.

    1. sunnygirl,
      awww, one of these days your gonna make me cry, bein all sweet and stuff!

      My backgrounds do tend to change with my mood lol. Though this one seems to be somewhat bright all of a sudden...

  2. Very delicious. Love this! Thanks for sharing.

  3. I agree with Leigh. Your writing is amazing and so real. And so deliciously hot!

    1. scarlet,
      thank you! "Hot" is not a form of writing that I have previously experimented much with, so it's nice to see posts like this being well received.

  4. I agree with the really draw the reader in and keep them wanting more.
    This is so beautiful...Thanks for sharing

    1. SUbrina,
      Thank you! Glad you enjoyed it.

  5. ^^^ yep! I agree!

    I've told you before, and I'm bound to say it again, and again, WRITE A BOOK!

    1. Misty,
      awww, you guys are going to give me a big head one of these days!

      Thank you. I do appreciate your kind words.

  6. you write so erotically without being very explicit - it's a gift.

    1. DelFonte,
      Thank you! I have always struggled with explicit writing, which led me to believe that writing things with an erotic component was outside my abilities. I truly am grateful for all of the support.

  7. Very nice thanks for sharing and you are a great writer

    1. Daisy,
      thank you! You are all really too kind to me.

  8. delicious...spellbinding....delicious...

    1. His slut,
      ooh la la, now "delicious" is a descriptive word that I am more than happy, and rather surprised, to hear in relation to my writings!

  9. "In that moment, I truly know what it is to get pleasure from pleasing." that!

    Those moments are what make it all the more better, to just be able to let go and 'be'.

    Re, your reply to my comment on previous post...umm ok you called me out lol nope i havent tried, honestly lil its a lack of confidence, i know perhaps i should try...maybe one day!


    1. tori,
      those moments are important, aren't they?

      Lol, sorry for calling on you. I understand that feeling. These posts just kind of happened...

  10. Wow ... Your writing! Just wow!

    It makes me hope that maybe one day I should ever be so lucky!

  11. Wow Lil! You absolutely should write a book! As the other ladies said. You truly have an amazing gift and ability to draw the reader in.


    1. Roz,
      awww, thank you Roz. Your gonna make me blush.

  12. Yes. Yes. Yes.
    To all of it!
    Great post, Lil.
    And yes...echoing loudly the comments that say "you should write."
    Agreed. *grins*

    1. Bleuame,
      Thank you!

      Blushes and shoves her head under a pillow*

      If only I had 1/4 of the confidence in myself that you all exhibit...


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