Monday, July 16, 2012

Body and Mind are Not One...?

I have gotten rather used to my body and my brain disagreeing about things. Very rude of my body, but it happens rather often.

I always know when my body is not on the same page as my mind. I know how it's going to feel and what it's going to do, even if I disagree.

The thing is...

It did something without me last night. Something that I had no clue was going to happen before it did.

See, orgasms tend to be somewhat elusive for me. One and I'm done--everything closes down, locks up, and revolts completely against further intrusion.
And it's been so long since I came without permission I'm not even sure I can do it anymore.

Last night he asked me if I was going to cum again. My brain said no, knowing that my body was in total agreement.
Then, against all the knowledge that my mind lay forth, it came on his command. Twice.

And I stared at the ceiling for a while afterwards contemplating this turn of events. Because while my body might not always do as I ask it to, it never does what someone else tells it to do without my prior consent.

It was a little bit scary. Which in turn made it that much more hot because I'm twisted like that.

So I'm still thinking. Because I'm not really sure what I think about this turn of events.

Oh yea, and I dreamed about sex again. What is happening to me?! It's a rhetorical question lol.


  1. It seems like a rapidly developing story.
    First, to your surprise, your mind starts dreaming about sex and then, to your further surprise, your body starts cumming without even discussing it with you.

    I think mind and body are still one, it’s just your consciousness that is not yet accustomed to this development.
    How is the back? Did it allow for the birthday spanking?

    1. Bas,
      Sometimes I think that everything around here is a rapidly developing story and I don't even know it's happening until I read the headlines lol.

      That's an interesting point about consciousness--mine just seems a bit slow on the uptake sometimes.

      Back is still refusing to cooperate and I was more than happy to skip the birthday spanking. He's older than me and that just doesn't seem fair!
      But I'm pretty sure he did get all the extra perks that come with having me wrapped around his finger. So all is well. If one ignores the back. Which I have every intention of doing as I stumble off to work tomorrow lol.

  2. Don't over analyze this - just lay back and enjoy it, again and again.

    1. sunnygirl,
      I really do think that is one of my biggest issues when it comes to sex--analyzing things to death. Since I didn't get to far with this one, I think you're quite right.

  3. lil, that is totally cool :) I can see where it might scare you some that your body responds better to him then to you, but, multiple orgasms are the bomb :D I highly recommend them to everyone, lol.

    1. faerie,
      lol--I think that is one of the most reasonable recommendations I have heard in ages.
      And if my body isn't going to behave like I want it to on a regular basis, it might as well do what he tells it to right?

  4. I think that sometimes we get so oversensitive after we cum -- that it makes it hard to cum again

    particularly if we try doing all the stuff that "works" for us
    perhaps just the command is the soft touch you needed.

    I love this
    I love that we can keep learning about ourselves
    and surprising ourselves

    good for you


    1. SFP,
      I think I tend to get way to caught up in the "trying". Kind of like flying dreams--if you try to hard you just can't get off the ground. But let go just enough and you float away.

      It's kind of funny how sometimes we think we have things figured out. That we know how they work and what will happen. And then one day we realize that our limited potential is really something we have imposed on ourselves and doesn't have to define us.

      Thank you.

  5. Maybe it was a combination of all kinds of elusive-can't-really-pin-it-down "things" that resulted in this experience.
    If it was me, I'd probably freak out (can relate to the whole "...while my body might not always do as I ask it to, it never does what someone else...." thoughts)but then I'd *try* to stop over thinking it and exult in the surprise :o)

    1. BleuAme,
      I have a bad habit of squashing the things that I want or have waited for. Trying not to do that here. So I have come to the conclusion that I'm not going to try and figure it out.
      I'm just going to sit back and see if it happens again lol.

  6. you know how we always they know what we need better than we do?

    just trust him! your body does...

    1. FA,
      It really is becoming more apparent over time!


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