"I always try to take your advice into consideration baby--whether you think I do or not. Even when it doesn't look like it."
I love that.
In the beginning, when I had an excessive amount of preconceived notions, I thought D/s meant my opinions didn't count as much. In retrospect, that was downright silly--but it seemed horribly logical at the time.
My opinions still count plenty. He just decides what to do with them.
I actually feel like he listens to me much better now. Instead of decreasing consideration, D/s expanded the amount of consideration we give each other.
Sure, sometimes I decide that he's an inconsiderate ass just because he can be. But overall, when it comes to the things that really matter, he gives me lots of consideration. That doesn't mean he always goes in the direction I think he should, but he does listen.
I give him much more consideration than I used to. And it's funny looking back at how we were compared to how we are.
I do so much wondering and thinking, that sometimes I forget how long we have had this dynamic. There are fundamental changes that occurred gradually over time. Sometimes I even forget they happened.
It has been long enough that our exchange of power is woven so deeply into our relationship that it's just always there. Despite the cycles and crazy times where it seems nonexistent.
Looking at where we were and where we are now? The changes changes have been pretty big.
I might even get this whole submission thing down eventually!