I know it's Valentines Day and I should probably be posting something sweet with chains wrapped around it, but we're having our day tomorrow when my mom watches the boys for us. I have suspicions that it will offer me some of those umm, "opportunities for growth" lol (thanks to aisha for reminding me that they hide around every corner).
For future reference, if you hate cold, never buy yourself a chain leash because you despise pink and the checkout lady at the pet store has started giving you dirty looks for staring at the leashes for twenty minutes after picking out a riding crop.
And that's all I have to say about that. So there. lol.
My mindset has been, shall we say, less than submissive. Yes, lets say that--it sounds so much better than raging bitch who can't snap out of crisis mode doesn't it?
My little light-bulb moment about dictating the terms of my submission has put me in a strange head space. I started to write a post about it, but I haven't even figured out enough to work it out through writing, so it'll sit for a time while I continue to muse.
Though I must admit--the more I think about it, the more it bothers me that I do this.
Today is our fourteenth Valentines Day together. I challenged his math (not too wise considering I spent a couple of months thinking we were going on 13 years together, not 14). Yea, he was right as usual.
It's crazy to think that we have been together for nearly half my life.
And here we are today--Dominant and Submissive or Master and slave, sane stable man and crazy emotional little thing, can't seem to pick a label that fits these days, so whatever lol.
But hey, we're in love. And that's quite good enough for me.
Love is enough of a title. Enjoy your date nite whenever it is.
ReplyDeleteLove is awesome.
ReplyDeleteThat picking a title gets pretty hard, yeah.
Labels are over rated anyway, lol. Happy Valentines Day...I hope you get an opportunity to do plenty of growing. Thanks for tip on the leash, I am sure it will come in handy.
ReplyDeleteI have been thinking a lot about what you said regarding dictating your submission, its a tricky one because i would say its natural for most submissives to want and need to please their dominant.
ReplyDeleteSo there is this conflict of emotions between wanting to please but also having to possibly face things that we are uncomfortable with....and this then coincides with the issue of labels.
As a submissive its generally said there is more leeway, as a slave there tends to be a lot less choices but then i have no doubt opinions will vary.
However using the above examples as a slave i dont get to pick and choose my submission, and i struggle at times, i dont want to hold back on him...but am i hindering myself through my own fears or unwillingness which is actually dictating my submission?...if that makes any sense at all you deserve a glass of wine lol
sorry i think i rambled on longer than i intended, anyway hope you have a nice day tomorrow.
LOL lil, I'll remember, no chain leashes.
ReplyDeleteI've been with Musicman MORE than half my life, that seems crazy to me, but it's a good crazy. Have a wonderful time tomorrow :)
faerie, lol. I absolutely hate cold and it seems like that thing never warms up! And that is a very good kind of crazy.
DeleteHave a Happy Valentines Day!
ReplyDeletebutterfly
SF, I hope you had a lovely day as well. Thank you.
DeleteI always enjoy reading your posts - they provide me food for thought! Cold and leashes - oh my. Plus evil old ladies at the pet store - tee hee. You truly live a fun life!
ReplyDeleteHappy V Day Lil!
All my best, Isabella
Isabella, thank you. And it really wasn't that fun. Haven't been back to that store since lol.
DeleteYou are in love, sometimes it doesn't need a fancy explanation. Hope you both had a lovely valentines day :)
ReplyDeleteDee x
Dee, while I continually seem to think things to death, sometimes the simplest things are the most incredible. Our Valentines Day officially begins after 2 PM today, and I am sure we will. Thank you.
DeleteI hope you had a lovely Valentines Day! You made me giggle thinking of the pet store cashier watching you look at the leashes!
ReplyDeleteYour posts always make me think!
Fondly, Sky
Sky, yea...She was not a nice person. Trying the trick of visualizing her wearing it (you know, like imagining your audience is naked), really did not help at all lol.
DeleteJust think, every year that passes now is one more year that you've been with Alpha creating a larger ratio of pre-Alpha/post-Alpha life.
ReplyDeleteI hope that makes sense - it sort of doesn't look right written down like that.