Thursday, February 9, 2012

Nine Years Ago Today...

Thing1 took babygirl back. It turned into one of those family-altering situations after which things will never be the same. I told thing1 I am done with her. Perhaps in a few years she will decide family is worth telling the truth for. Who knows. I will no longer make an exception for her regarding the type of people I am willing to have in my life. Nor will I compromise my belief in truth.

That aside, today is our eldest son's birthday. I told him that next year he'll be entering the double digits and he'll be old. Yea, he informed me just how ancient he thinks I am lol.
Alpha says that he feels the birth of our boys were both momentous events that helped lead us to where we are now (yea I know--no shit, right). Not just from the perspective as parents, but in taking the path we have with D/s.
And it's true. Those two events brought us together while I was at my most vulnerable. In ways I never could have previously conceived of.

It's a strange day today. But it's a birthday. So we will play chess, watch movies, and let the kiddo get away with everything short of murder for one day.

I'm working through a lot of jumbled thoughts surrounding ttwd. Maybe one day soon I'll be able to make them comprehensible lol.

Nine years ago today our first son was born. And that makes it a once in a lifetime event.
 So all that other stuff? Can wait.

16 comments:

  1. happy birthday to your son and congratulations to you, 9 years as a parent, only a life time to go.

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    1. Sir J, Thank you. And I'm quite happy to have a lifetime to go, though there doesn't seem to be any other responsibility quite as overwhelming lol.

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  2. Happy Birthday to your son. I have always believed that mother's should also receive gifts on the kids birthdays, so enjoy the day for the gift it is. The rest of the stuff will wait.

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    1. faerie, Thank you. I have held that belief since giving birth lol. Alpha and my son always tell me happy birthday on the kids birthdays. It makes me feel warm and fuzzy lol.

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  3. Happy Birthday to your first born, Lil.

    I'm sorry that little Baby girl has gone from your home. Sending you warm hugs and thoughts to stay strong.

    Enjoy your sons special day :)

    Fondly, Sky

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    1. Sky, thank you. It has been a rough up-and-down transition to be sure. I can only hope that it works out so that thing2 can take care of her from now on out.

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  4. Sorry about the turmoil. It must be hard constantly having to readjust to that situation.

    Happy Birthday to your son.

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    1. sunnygirl, yea, I'm pretty good at adjusting, but adjusting back and forth in such extreme ways certainly takes a toll.
      Thank you.

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  5. Happy Birthday to your son!

    i can only imagine what the rest of it is like. Nice work focusing on what you can control.

    hugs,

    aisha

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    1. aisha, thank you. I am trying to work on focusing on the things I can control--as an habitual worrier, it's not my strong suit.

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  6. Happy Birthday to your little guy! Best Wishes

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  7. Best wishes to your son.

    Omega and mouse

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  8. Happy Birthday to your 9yr old, and I like faerie's idea :)

    Dee x

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Play nice.