Tuesday, July 2, 2013

The Lovely and the Not so Lovely

I admit to feeling exceptionally lazy. I may or may not get around to the comments on my last post.

Our anniversary was lovely. It was the first time we have had 2 whole nights alone together in 5 years. Totally awesome.
Our anniversary pretty much covers most of our big relationship steps--it was the day we met, the day we got married, the day he gave me my first collar (yes, I have gone through a couple, what can I say--leather+forgetful+showering is a bad combination). This year, it also marked having been together for half of my lifetime.
Not bad, if I do say so myself.

Unfortunately, the little one brought home the bug from hell, to which our eldest and I both succumbed. Did I mention I caught it on the first day of my menses? Then I proceeded to wait an hour and a half after my appointment time in the Doctor's office for an unrelated appointment.

Today however, I am human again!
It is unfortunate that said humanity is disappearing into severe irritation at the medical system and my insurance--Is it really asking that much to get important tests done this century? I have to admit, that whole not worrying thing? Yea, went right out the window lol.

Okay, bitching always makes me feel a bit better, so moving on...

I have been having strange and unusual dreams lately. Well, strange and unusual for me anyways--I just don't dream sex and submission. I didn't used to anyways...
They are leaving me with a sense of frustration that I am rather unfamiliar with, and that are totally incompatible with my body's current approach to life.
I want to be made to crawl and beg
to be grabbed by the throat and thrown up against the wall
to be pissed all over and fucked senseless
to be taken to the edge and thrown over...

I'm starting to realize that my writing is reflecting the fact that I haven't really consumed anything in the last 2 days besides the cup of coffee I am currently finishing.
Wonder if this is what it feels like to be a snail on meth. With cramps.
I had better go do the dishes and limit my interactions with the world lol.


  1. Ranting is good for the soul. It is better to vent then keep it all bottled up inside.

    I hope you are feeling better soon!


    1. Lost Kittie,
      now if only moderation worked the same way...
      Am feeling much better, thank you.

  2. OMG. I'm laughing but I know it's not funny to you. Hope things are better soon. Life can be a real pain in the A** somethimes, can't it. It needs to be kicked around and thrown to the curb.

    1. sunnygirl,
      oh I dunno, I thought there was some humorous merit to the snail on meth...

      And yes, yes it does.

  3. Hi I hope that you feel better. :) t

    1. Hi saturn. I am feeling much better, thank you.

  4. Well glad to hear your feeling better..and 2 whole days just for you 2 thats great so there is a silver lining!


    1. tori,
      it really was great! She even admitted that it wasn't so terrible and maybe we could do it again before they both grow up and move out..

  5. Hey Lil

    Glad to hear you had a wonderful anniversary. Yay for 2 whole days of alone time! Hope you are feeling better soon! Ranting is definitely good for the soul.


    1. Roz,
      it was wonderful, and I am. Thank you!

  6. Alone time can be so precious to come by. I'm glad you and Alpha had the opportunity.

    Also - "snail on meth". Im laughing at least.

    And I love your new background. My Sir makes chain mail, so it's a background dear to my heart! <3

    1. Lea,
      It really is precious!

      I love chain mail. Very neat that he makes it!


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