Saturday, December 3, 2011

Self Punishment?

Alpha strives for consistency. He knows there's this little monster hiding inside me that is just waiting for a hint of inconsistency to bare it's teeth and begin chewing on any available victim. I do try not to be that way, but there you have it.

I knew punishment was coming. I was fairly sure it was going to hurt like hell.

I got three swats on the ass and

an air of puzzled disappointment.

I guess that sometimes the worst punishment is no punishment at all.

Maybe it's still coming. He likes to figure out what's really going on with me first. And I haven't been able to shine any light on it for either of us. Though occasionally he will get to the answer through my punishment.

Anyways, that wasn't the end of it. Oh no--my body decided to inflict its own punishment.

He gave me several opportunities to cum. And I hovered on the edge.
Painfully close...
I couldn't do it. Until my last chance was over...And I started to slip over the edge...But it was too late.

So there you have it. Involuntary self punishment?


  1. I had a conversation yesterday with a friend about this very thing. We will both end up unable to cum for at least a few days, even after the issue is worked out. I look at it as having to get Master's forgiveness into the huge, stubborn block of stone I call my head :P

  2. i can so relate to the no - although i haven't been ballsy enough to try that yet - i still sometimes do the oh so appreciated passive-aggressive dodge and weave instead. That just serves to piss him off and leave me either wishing he would call me on it in a concrete way or regretting that i pushed him to call me on it in a concrete way. And i find myself waiting right now for a punishment too - different circumstances, but a very, very disconcerting feeling.

  3. That is an interesting phrase -- involuntary self punishment by your body. How has it reacted since then. Let us know how you are doing.


  4. The same thing seems to happen to Joy. When she feels like she's "in trouble", she seems to be unable to reach orgasm. This is true no matter how hard I try, and even if I don't think she's in trouble at all. Sometimes I have a devil of a time convincing her she hasn't let me down.

    Anyway, hope all is better and the situation is resolved soon!

  5. agog,
    I have one of those huge blocks of stone on my shoulders too lol.
    The ironic thing is, days before I had more orgasms in a row than ever before. Maybe it's not an endless supply and I used them all upppppp.

    ah yes, the dodge and weave. I have it perfected I am sorry to say. He's got a rather large net for catching it though.
    Waiting for a punishment can be so weird can't it? For me I guess it just depends on where I'm at at the time--sometimes it's good contemplation and encourages submissive feelings. Other times I just get really aggravated and snarky about it.

    Florida Dom,
    it hasn't reacted to my liking since then lol. I guess it's one of those "time and experimentation will tell" kind of things. And I'm doing irritably lol.

    hmmm, while I know I should feel sympathy for her, I'm too busy being glad that I'm not the only one lol.
    And I hope so too.

  6. Wow I think I jut made sense of my struggle to orgasm at times...
    Hope you figure out what's up...

  7. viemore, it's terrible! lol. I hope so too...


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