Is there anything better than a public apology? Well, I know blow jobs are the best apology. But public apology has to place somewhere right?
I'm sorry for the way I have been lately.
I know I can make anything complicated. And this shouldn't be such a struggle. It isn't usually is it?
And I don't want to blame it on the headaches; I don't want to blame it on those horrible invading hormone monsters; I don't want to blame it on the mess that life can be; or my difficulty adjusting to every damn change of season.
I want to own my mistakes so I don't repeat them. Over and over and over again.
I know that I'm a lot of work. And I like to think that I am worth it. But some days I wonder you know?
The truth is--I love you more than words can tell.
I wish that I could be everything you want and need.
But I'm just lil old me.
And I am truly sorry for the week we have had. Sorry for the "no," and the words I said or didn't say between then and now.
You don't know how much I desire to please you. And I am aware that is really my fault. Because I don't express it easily and I can be so reluctant.
We have walked a long road to here and now. But I wouldn't take back any step along the way--because that is how we got here. To today.
I love you.
And I am sorry.