Things that I am supposed to do.
Things that I decided he didn't care about because it didn't seem to matter to him whether I did them or not.
Things that he reminded me last night under no uncertain circumstances
I am supposed to do.
Somewhere along the way, I decided that I didn't have to do them because it seemed like he didn't care if I did them.
Because it seemed like they didn't really please him. And if they didn't please him, why bother to do any of it?
I made the assumption that I could decide what pleased him based on his reactions or lack thereof. Instead of relying on doing what I had been told to do to be pleasing.
Suddenly he has this vested and serious interest in how I take care of myself. In a way, it's a bit irritating, because I'm not ten anymore.
In another way? It's actually extremely hot. Like whips and chains hot, only in a different way.
Don't ask me why because I couldn't say exactly. But somehow it's a huge turn-on.
And suddenly, all those things that slid by the way because I decided they didn't please him when they really actually did, are back on the table. They are every day expectations to live up to.
Because I don't get to choose what pleases him.
That is hot. Knowing what you do pleases him, that he noticed. He noticed you NOT doing them is huge!!! Yea lil!!
ReplyDeleteHugs,
fiona
sirQsmlb,
DeleteWhat I find most oddly hot, is his attention to my self care (if that sentence makes sense).
Silly, lil. Of course he notices.
ReplyDeletest,
DeleteLol, yes. But Now I know exactly how he feels about it.
and they say we are mercurial. lol
ReplyDeletesunnygirl,
DeleteLOL. I know right?
Le sigh. Sounds divine!
ReplyDeleteSubGirl,
Deleteit is. In a somewhat hellish way lol.
I just went through this with Master lately. I'm not sure if he's being more attentive about what I'd been slacking on, but it definitely seemed hot how he responded to me when I brought up not doing it, and it sounded like he was just waiting for enough time alone for him to explain more thoroughly how upset he was at my lack of obedience.
ReplyDeleteLoki,
Deleteodd how it can take so much time for something we know to sink in...
I know why it's hot. It's hot because adults in equitable relationships expect the other adults to care for their own personal details autonomously, to their own standards, unlike your relationship, where he cares for you more like, say, one of his possessions? Oh yeah, it's hot.
ReplyDeletelm,
Delete*bows and contemplates just pasting this comment into the top of the post and telling people to skip the rest.*
You nailed it.
Im probably off on a different direction (can i blame the drugs lol) but this seems similar to how i used to feel about doing things im supposed to do.
ReplyDeleteI used to want some acknowledgement that im doing as i have been asked/told..something, anything! he pointed out to me that i shouldnt expect anything for simply doing as i should be ie being obedient.
and well at first i found that umm well it pissed me off!! and then slowly (coz im not always a quick learner) that he was right.
x
tori,
DeleteLol. Oh live up the blaming it on drugs while you can!
That is quite true, I mean, I don't expect a reward for feeding my kids because it's what I'm supposed to do (strange analogy, I'll admit).
The annoying thing is, I KNOW this! It just seems that I have an abnormally thick skull...
Oh yes i too found this out when i didn't finish my blog in time.
ReplyDeleteJodi,
Deleteit happens to us all sometimes I think.
So true Lil, we don't get to decide what pleases them. A fact I get reminded of constantly by hubby.
ReplyDeleteOh yes, taking an interest in ensuring we take care of ourselves. I agree, it is hot!
Hugs,
Roz
Roz,
DeleteSometimes I frustrate myself--I know things, then I seem to continually have to relearn them!