Thursday, March 1, 2012

Another Trip Around the Sun

Today marks my 29th trip around the sun.
The funny thing is, I have always been told I was too young--for the things I was doing, the thoughts I was thinking, the way I was living, the causes I was championing. You name it. And the judgements always just seemed to adjust to my age lol.

So yea, when I'm 80, I'll be old enough right? Oops, then I'll be judged as senile. Damn.

I got an introduction to the cane last night, and a lecture about how my view of myself reflects on Alpha and the importance of positive thinking. Yep, I think that one umm, sank in pretty good.The cane is positively evil. He's not gonna think my play on words is smart lol.

I don't do new years resolutions, but on my birthday, I do tend to muse about things that I would like to accomplish for the coming year.
And this time around, it's pretty simple...

I want to feel more comfortable in my own skin.
I want to work on learning to let go. Like how I left that one open ended? This could take a number of trips around the sun. It's good to have goals lol.
I want to go further down the rabbit hole we call Dominance and submission. I think this one is closely related to item number two.
I would like to get up enough confidence (and money, it's a good excuse to ignore my real hold-up), to get the education for the career I really want. Got a whole year for that because the program starts in spring semester lol.

I think that's pretty realistic.

I still find it a bit odd, this whole growing older without a father thing. He's the one who gave me my love of birthdays in general (okay, well it's mostly other people's birthdays I love, but anyways...), and it's a bit strange the way life goes on. But I suppose that is as it should be.

In other random news, as a mother I get two days a year to sleep in--mothers day and my birthday. Uhuh, I'm up by 7:00 every time. Wtf is up with that lol.
Though I do get a monopoly on the coffee. What more could a girl ask for?

34 comments:

  1. Happy Birthday lil,

    I always think about where I am heading in life on my birthday as well.

    Have a great day!!

    Sss

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    1. Sss, thank you.
      I think musing about the future is probably far more productive than dwelling on the past.

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  2. Happy Birthday. I know you will make it a great year.

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  3. Happy Birthday to you!!!!
    ((hugs))
    Aluv

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  4. Happy Birthday, lil. Enjoy your day.

    ~tranquility

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    1. tranquility, thank you. I did--there's nothing like getting a monopoly on the coffee supply!

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  5. Happy Birthday.

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  6. Happy Birthday lil. The cane is the lesser of two evils I can assure you :)

    Dee x

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    1. Dee, thank you. It may be the lesser of two evils, but it does seem a bit more painful lol.

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  7. Happy birthday!

    The world just keeps on going - good for you for going along with it.

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    1. Conina, thank you. And The world doesn't really give us much options there does it.

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  8. Happy Birthday to you xx

    Now i love the cane but getting older not so much...when i turned 30 i bawled my eyes out..sad i know lol now im 36 and i figure thats a good place to stop at.

    Hope your having a lovely day.

    best wishes

    tori

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    1. painspleasure, lol, bawling at thirty has been pre- forbidden. We'll see how that one works out.
      I figure whatever age we are at only comes once, so might as well love it for what it is right.

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  9. Happy Birthday lil!
    I turned 30 in November of last year. Ugghhh......I'm not a 20 something anymore, but I deal with. :)
    We both got our introduction to the cane about the same time. He loved using it a little too much I think, so I am sure it will make a main stay in ttwd. I agree with you. Right now I think it's just a little bitch of a thing. I hope I can learn to love it.
    Love your birthday musing also. I am sure you can master them!

    baby

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    1. baby, I find your description of the cane to be most accurate of any I have read! And yea, learning to love it as much as they do would probably be a very good thing. It's one hell of a learning curve though!

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    2. I find that as an awesome compliment coming from you. I respect all your writing very much!

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  10. Happy Birthday, young'un!
    (Ab-so-flippin'lute-ly NO sympathy from here until you have at least another 21 under your belt!)
    But the sincere good wishes start now. ;-p

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    1. Jz, lmao. See, I told you people always pick on me for my age! And huh, when I have another 21 under my belt, you'll be back over saying the same thing.
      Thank you.

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  11. Happy birthday lil! I wish I had known about TTWD at your young age. Hope you have a wonderful day!

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  12. I like your blog and thank you so much for reading and commenting on mine. :)

    BT

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    1. barelytrained, thank you. I'm glad you enjoy the blog.

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  13. Happy Birthday Lil! Have a great day.

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  14. lil,
    It was an auspicious day - March 1: it was my husband's birthday yesterday as well. I can't decide if birthdays have come to be less significant and introspection inducing over time, or if we are both just so damned unsentimental... But I tend to find myself thinking about what the coming year holds rather than the one past. So in that spirit - i wish you adventures and joy for the year ahead.

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    1. gg, happy birthday to him. I think it's best to spend more time looking ahead than behind. There's generally more hope and inspiration there...
      Thank you.

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  15. Happy belated birthday Lil! I liked your list as well as the idea of making them on a birthday instead of New Years.
    Now for the 22nd time, I'm going to see if Blogger will remember your blog for me. (I do try to not complain about things I don't spend a cent on.)

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    1. Susie, thank you.
      And blogger has been a finicky bitch lately in so many ways. I try not to complain too much...I'm even sometimes successful!

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  16. Happy birthday, lil. Sorry I'm late to the party, but hope it was a good one!

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  17. Happy belated birthday- I did not realize we share birthdays! :)

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    1. viemora, I wonder if that contributes to some of our similarities? Happy belated birthday to you as well.

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