Today marks my 29th trip around the sun.
The funny thing is, I have always been told I was too young--for the things I was doing, the thoughts I was thinking, the way I was living, the causes I was championing. You name it. And the judgements always just seemed to adjust to my age lol.
So yea, when I'm 80, I'll be old enough right? Oops, then I'll be judged as senile. Damn.
I got an introduction to the cane last night, and a lecture about how my view of myself reflects on Alpha and the importance of positive thinking. Yep, I think that one umm, sank in pretty good.The cane is positively evil. He's not gonna think my play on words is smart lol.
I don't do new years resolutions, but on my birthday, I do tend to muse about things that I would like to accomplish for the coming year.
And this time around, it's pretty simple...
I want to feel more comfortable in my own skin.
I want to work on learning to let go. Like how I left that one open ended? This could take a number of trips around the sun. It's good to have goals lol.
I want to go further down the rabbit hole we call Dominance and submission. I think this one is closely related to item number two.
I would like to get up enough confidence (and money, it's a good excuse to ignore my real hold-up), to get the education for the career I really want. Got a whole year for that because the program starts in spring semester lol.
I think that's pretty realistic.
I still find it a bit odd, this whole growing older without a father thing. He's the one who gave me my love of birthdays in general (okay, well it's mostly other people's birthdays I love, but anyways...), and it's a bit strange the way life goes on. But I suppose that is as it should be.
In other random news, as a mother I get two days a year to sleep in--mothers day and my birthday. Uhuh, I'm up by 7:00 every time. Wtf is up with that lol.
Though I do get a monopoly on the coffee. What more could a girl ask for?