Saturday, November 19, 2011

Beautiful Whore

Beautiful whore.
That's better than just "whore" or "beautiful" standing alone. Wouldn't you say?

It's a strange mix of incredible extremes isn't it--ttwd.

How the words "I love you and you are My whore" whispered as belt meets skin change that moment into something beyond pleasure and pain. And the thoughts in my mind explode in the beautiful contradiction.

Because it is a bit of a contradiction. An odd balance between being spoken to like a queen and treated like a whore. Or a combination of both. Like cruelty mixed with tenderness. It pushes all my buttons and gives me something beyond who I am and what I see myself to be.
A contradiction of sorts yet also a completion of the whole. Balance.

Embracing the darkness has led me to the light. And I like what I see--no matter how much it terrifies me. 

"I love you and I am going to hurt you. Then I will kiss away your tears and wash away your fears."

A beautiful contradiction.

9 comments:

  1. You've nailed it perfectly - and it sounds like Alpha has as well. I know that real life things often just suck - i'm glad to hear, it sounds like, your relationship isn't one of them and is a retreat and a rescue from the rest.

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  2. Beautiful...you so eloquently described what so many of us desire from our relationships.

    William

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  3. I gave you a Versatile Blogger Award

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  4. I too listed this blog in my nominees for the VBA. Looks like Composing Us beat me to it.

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  5. gg, thank you. And it's important to have some kind of retreat isn't it? because life is crazy.

    ekho, thank you.

    William, thank you. I often strive for eloquence but don't always achieve it.

    Composing Us, thank you!

    Serenity, it does amazing things doesn't it.

    Evan, thank you!

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Play nice.