I have been thinking about the way ttwd expands who we are as human beings. It was compounded by a post I read this morning that mentioned BDSM as a spiritual experience. Granted, it's not always about a deeper meaning because it's one of those things that just...is. However, while it may be a characteristic part of our personalities, exploring the possibilities changes the way we see ourselves. I feel that my perception is skewed because we discovered this path after years together so I cannot really comprehend things in the context of arriving at it in any other way. I guess we all come at it from our own point of view though.
Anyways, sometimes it's just good fun and sometimes it's not really fun at all. But there are those times when I wake up in the morning, and I realize that I am not quite the same as I was the day before. This usually happens after the horizons have been expanded in some way. Exploring D/s as a way of life with Alpha has deeply impacted my perceptions of both myself and our relationship. It's an alternate state of mind to the world we live in. A step into another reality of our very own and we bring pieces of that reality back with us into everyday life. It's somewhat addictive.
As I was stalking my husband around the house this morning for no good reason besides a desire to be close, He looked over His shoulder and asked "what's up little one?" I grinned and asked if I could be His stalker. He chuckled, "awww, you have a crush on me."
Oh, I most certainly do. and I can't think of a better person to have a crush on.